Been a while since I've been able to update my blog... sheesh. Time flies when you're busy!! Anyways- More about my life...
I must say that today, aggravations that I pushed aside a few months ago- were trying their hardest to creep back in and invade my thoughts. I get so frustrated with myself sometimes! I see or hear one thing someone does or says that's just so pointless and WRONG- and it "irks" (?) me so bad- down to my very core. There's so much I want to be able to say to those people. I want them to KNOW I am NOT okay with their actions- their attitudes- their belittling and criticizing remarks. It's not that I care anymore about getting everyone's approval- and it's sure not because I still feel like I'll never be anything if they don't help me... it's just the fact that I DON'T KNOW IF THEY KNOW that I've been hurt, disappointed, and severely let down by them. Is that wrong?? It's not that I want to make anyone feel that they're not good enough- cause I know that feeling all too well, and it's not a pleasant one. :\... but I can just tell that some of those people don't feel bad- or even think they're even the slightest bit at fault for how rude and hateful they've been... and that eats me up. And it's not always because of what they've done to me... but I've watched them around other people I care about. Grrrr. But- back to the ME.N.U theme- that leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. And it's not right. Even though what they're doing isn't- me getting that aggravated isn't the best thing either. And even though I can HONESTLY say with all my heart that I no longer let people control my life, my dreams, my confidence, my happiness- sometimes, if I'm not careful- I will let them invade my thoughts- which in turn, can easily effect the former.
Is there anyone else out there that deals with these things? Whatever you do, don't give them room! If they aren't worth living your life around- then why let them have your thoughts? Don't! Dwell on the goodness of your life- concentrate on the dreams you will reach.
When you take a bite out of something that leaves that icky, bitter taste in your mouth, are you going to go back to that same thing everyday? Every week, month- ever? I don't. If I eat something that I don't like- I don't keep trying it. Chances are, 98% of that stuff, I will NEVER like.
So- I figured out today- I don't like wasting my time and my daydreams on thoughts of people that aggravate me. I've got to let it go. Give it to the Lord and let Him handle it. He will. In time. I may not even know it. But, there have been a few things I've seen Him move in for me- so I know, without ANY doubts that He will take care of it. - Without any bitter tastes left for me.
I hope you can let it go, too. I'm sure they will try to sneak back in my mind here and there- and I'll probably end up sharing it here on ME.N.U- but together, we can overcome it! We are special. We do have potential. We will succeed and do great things. God is for us. It will happen. Some people just can't handle that. But we can. And it will taste- good.
